Written earlier this month, I’ve entered the recording of a dream I had having gone to bed with issues on my mind into what I call: The Book of Dreams. That the subconscious sends messages in sometimes the strangest and most surreal forms, this one is worthy of print…at least as far as I’m concerned because lessons can be learned from it. Sure in posting it here I may leave myself open to criticism, sometimes negative at that, it provides an unusual twist to lessons that can be had in even the fewest of lines.
But I’m not always known for being laconic. It’s the way I write. Albeit, this is a story, a fictitious one at that, because it has indeed come from my mind in a waking dream. …What an awakening it was!
06-13-09_’Swart Has Nothing to Do!’
I had a dream…This one MUST go into my regular Journal and NOT just in the Book of Dreams…the nighttime visitation strongly reflect what’s going on in my life right now! It has to do with Sharon, my place in life, what I find myself doing these days, what has always happened in my life since I was brought here…it could be the most important dream I have ever had in life – my subconscious mind sending my conscious mind a message – that must be recorded in print…
I found myself in an ultra sleek bowling alley with candle pins and was with the bowling champs, bowling on their league. These people were pirates and played the game with all seriousness and hands down on the table! They took no foolishness and ignored all negativity. They strove for success. It was the name of their game!
Everybody in the play rushed to the balls to collect theirs. I wound up with the last picks…
The lanes were zig-zagged and the starting run was also tricky. It had some sort of elaborate three-step run! I had to watch the first few play it before I could understand it and know how to play it myself. It began…the lights changed! I wound up with green stripe number 13 balls and realized I only had two of three balls I needed. The balls were numbered and looked like billiard balls but were the size of candle-pin bowling balls.
I began frantically looking for that third ball! There were balls all over the floor but none of them were a green stripe 13 ball! All the other colors and numbers were spoken for.
The first round came…the first player came up, and the second, and the third. They all did pretty good! I could only find a much smaller ball for the third ball. It was literally the size of a billiard ball! I could not find that ball anywhere! It was just nowhere to be found! I needed that green stripe 13 to go with my other two!
It came up my turn I did the trick and rolled the first ball I had…only to find out I was given only two standing pins to start with – it was a strong roll but the ball hit only one of the two pins! Either I stepped in someone else’s turn or…
That’s just plain all I was getting! “You get what you get!”
I could hear the other players and the spectators going, “Ooooooh!” I threw the second ball…in the gutter! No sound could be heard from anyone watching…
Where’s that third ball!!!
I looked all over the place!!! I got skipped my third run of the frame! The show had to go on! I could not use that little ball I had and I inquired about using one of the other numbered balls…
Some authoritative voice echoed throughout the bowling alley, “Not Allowed!”
When my turn came around again I lost one of my two existing balls somewhere! I went all the way down the alley looking for it…holding up the game! The ball I was looking at from afar was a red stripe 14! I came back up the alley to the start…missed my turn!
The mood changed. The lights went down as if in a roller-skating rink. It went down to a dark psychedelic deep blue-purple hue to increase the challenge and raise the excitement. In the darkened lighting the mood amongst the players changed to solemnity. They were ready for it and I had not even begun! One of the players got a strike!
I could hear the wild cheering from the spectators!
I’m still looking for my second ball that I somehow misplaced and that third ball for the set! I had a bunch of coins in my hand and threw them down in my frustration. I could hear the jingling as they dashed amongst all kinds of clutter on the sideline. They couldn’t be retrieved again!
I went to the other side of the bowling alley looking for that green stripe 13 ball! Nobody ever heard of such a thing. Nobody would even listen to me! It was as if I didn’t exist or belong in that bowling alley, let alone the league or that championship game!
The game proceeded on without me…I was completely unprepared nor did I move fast enough. Not a soul would help me! I was up a stream with no paddle! The only thing I could do was drift aimlessly with no direction, no control…any way the wind blows…
That ball was not to be found anywhere!
I went behind a bar at that other end of the joint. Nobody else was behind it but people were drinking at it. None of them paid no attention that I was behind their bar. I could hear the playing going on and every spectator’s eyes were on that league I was supposed to be in.
Suddenly, out of nowhere came great boulder-sized bowling ball at me and I ducked out of its way to avoid getting injured by it! I went back out from behind the bar…
I went back to the league. They were announcing the progress of the game…this one is smoking, this one is slamming, that one cooked up another strike! The last announcement from the commentator…”Swart has nothing to do!”
I awoke…looking at the ceiling of my camper in bewilderment…
I wrote in my Journal years ago what Mother said of me on October 10th, 1992, “…she hugged me and called me her son, but that I am a loser, and will never amount to anything.”
I got down off my bunk and went straight to my computer to see if Sharon had responded to any of my many messages I sent to send her trying to get her attention…
I never got that far!
On the email queue I left open all night – euergetes3 – was plastered with six Tellman emails…the fourth one down suddenly caught my eye…
Tellman(2) Daniel – Still stuck at step 1? – Daniel – What’s the first step Jun 12
What’s the message?
Some people make it happen…
Some people watch it happen…
Some people say, “What happened!?”
Do not let others live your life for you!
Do not let others do your thinking for you!
To do that delegates them to control you!
Don’t complain and don’t whine!
Do keep your head up and NEVER look down!
Take account for everything in your life; don’t go around blaming everybody and everything for circumstances in your life.
This most definitely strips you of self-control!
Get in control and stay there!
Life is too precious to waste – and it goes on whether you are with it or not!
If you are not prepared – you will get left behind and in all likeliness, nobody’s going to help you!
Life is a game and we’re all in a race…
This game is serious business!
Nobody knows more about life than the One who created it!
…Now the final impact of this visitation…
There are no champions other than the ones who are in that game, are ready, and take action!